I like to cook. I think it might be the immediate gratification. You put salmon on a cedar plank on the grill. You put an ear of corn next to it. You cut up some cherry tomatoes, avocado, and cilantro and dump it in a bowl with some salt, pepper, red wine vinegar, and cilantro. Then cut the corn off the cob into the bowl. Scoop some on a plate and then lay the salmon on top of it. Dinner is served.
Sorry, this wasn’t meant to be a Pioneer Woman blog. It’s just a quick description of how I spent my evening. Started at 6, ate at 7. Had a plan, followed the instructions, had a good dinner. I think that’s why I liked school, too. For each class, I had a syllabus. I knew what I needed to do: read the books, do the work, get the grade. And I did.
The thing is: life doesn’t have a syllabus. Neither marriage nor parenting has a list of assignments. And you don’t get specific grades as you go along. You just feel like you failed sometimes. And you know what else? The things that matter rarely have an end date. That’s one great thing about a school semester. There is a day when the stress ends. After that, you cannot fret about it any longer. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t want my marriage, or my family, or my ministry, or any of the other things in my life to end. But some days I sure could use a spring break from the stress.
I rarely feel like I have a handle on what God is doing in my life. I guess if God gave me all those details then I could just go on and try to get it done without Him. And I know God will do a better job. So I can be patient. I can be willing to struggle and even fail. I can trust Him from moment to moment. It was easier to trust Him with my life. It’s been harder to trust Him with my wife and my kids.
It’s like every moment with my family is a little bit of seasoning going into a meal that’s going to braise for 30 years. It’s hard to wait. And honestly, it’s hard to stay disciplined to brown the minced garlic for just the right amount of time when the meal is decades away. But I guess I’m taking the metaphor too far, because there is joy in the taste of our family today. And God is faithful for the future. So I’ll just lean on that.
3 thoughts on “The Immediate Gratification of Cooking”
What a beautiful family you have! And it looks like your son is now taller than you. Perhaps the waiting is like the farmer waiting for harvest. You and Jenny have sown good seed into your kids’ lives which will bear fruit in the days and years to come. Love to you all.
Thank you, Todd. I really needed to hear that. I struggle with trusting God even though He has not given me any reasons not to. It is typical for me to pray to God to put me in a job where He desires me to be and do His good works to a needy world and then pray to the Spirit to guide me and direct my paths…and then I find myself on a job board doing it all myself before even saying, “Amen”. How is it I can believe every verse of Genesis, every syllable of the gospels and every act to come in Revelation, but trusting the One who is in control of it all is so impossible at times? I’m gonna keep praying and working through it and I pray you find the strength to trust Him with your family. Thanks for giving us food for thought (pun intended). God Bless…
I could almost smell your salmon cooking. There are days that I wish I knew for sure if I was passing or failing. I just know and I’m glad that my salvation doesn’t rely on my “grade”.It is my dependence on what Christ did for me on the cross.